semester one week away from being over. boyfriend a prick again, sunday, im anxious and lazy. im going back to church next sunday. im laying in bed with my cat after a strange saturday night and a week with some stomach flu. i drove up to school friday and suddenly felt too faint to drive. i pulled over at a gas station and called my parents to see if they could pick me up. my dad called me and told me that i had to go to school, else there would be consequences. i was in the car, fainting, my stomach was killing me, i had a migraine and i mamaged to drive all the way up to school, i pulled myself through and crashed into my class, and i crashed on the floor before picking myself up and going about. i told my mom to pick me up at a nearby parking lot since the one at school is hard to get into. she told me not to i did it anyway. i didnt want any trouble. and when i did, i called my parents who were already driving to pick me up and they were furious about me leaving. they were fuming. telling me that if i could drive those 2 minutes from school to the parking lot i could drive 30 kms back home. i cried and cried in my car, Felt the week my stomach was churning. I was left stranded and abandoned. i picked myself up and drove home. my dad wouldnt let me turn on the AC. I sweated it off. by saturday, it was fine and my stomach had settled. i thought id never get better, i didnt move from ym bed or eat a crumb from tuesday to friday. but my stupid boyfriend ruined the night for me. i cant find the strength to leave or stay. sometimes im sure i love him sometimes i think im just not in the place to move on. maybe its just how im used to him. hes charming enough. god.
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