washer

Goodnight my love Remember me as you fall to sleep Fill your pockets with the dust and the memories That rises from the shoes on my feet I won't be back here Though we may meet again I know it's dark outside Don't be afraid Everytime I ever cried from fear Was just a mistake that I made Wash yourself in your tears And build your church On the strength of your faith Please Listen to me Don't let go Don't let this desperate moonlight leave me With your empty pillow Promise me the sun will rise again I too am tired now Embracing thoughts of tonight's dreamless sleep My head is empty My toes are warm I am safe from harm...

Sunday, October 27, 2024

RAH

 I KNOW IM ANNOYING LEAVE ME ALONE

this is my place and i can do what i want. i am not this annoying unless im drunk and feeling inferior. God!

i am not going into the woods, there is nothing there for me. Ive been studying for DAYS ive done nothing aside from writing and reading and writing and reading. Man!

Im 20! i get to be pretentious and annoying and young and stupid! i hate feeling low, alone. i hate feeling this. i know im not important and will never be. i know its a stupid pursuit. i know im not unique and i know i know i know but i hate people calling me immature. my youth was stunted then cut it half then i was violated. yes. i was, no longer am or can be. not young, not innocent, too naive, too stupid, too indulgent into myself. then it happened all over again. and i live in my past and i want to go back to my grandmas house and i can but i wont and i want to write a novel and i can but i wont and i live missing and i love missing and ten years passed me by like ten years will pass by and i am alone, knotting myself into a circle, feeling stupid, hearing people call my stupid in their heads, feeling nothing, i want to be someone. 


oct 9

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