I KNOW IM ANNOYING LEAVE ME ALONE
this is my place and i can do what i want. i am not this annoying unless im drunk and feeling inferior. God!
i am not going into the woods, there is nothing there for me. Ive been studying for DAYS ive done nothing aside from writing and reading and writing and reading. Man!
Im 20! i get to be pretentious and annoying and young and stupid! i hate feeling low, alone. i hate feeling this. i know im not important and will never be. i know its a stupid pursuit. i know im not unique and i know i know i know but i hate people calling me immature. my youth was stunted then cut it half then i was violated. yes. i was, no longer am or can be. not young, not innocent, too naive, too stupid, too indulgent into myself. then it happened all over again. and i live in my past and i want to go back to my grandmas house and i can but i wont and i want to write a novel and i can but i wont and i live missing and i love missing and ten years passed me by like ten years will pass by and i am alone, knotting myself into a circle, feeling stupid, hearing people call my stupid in their heads, feeling nothing, i want to be someone.
oct 9
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