glory! : back to school

washer

Goodnight my love Remember me as you fall to sleep Fill your pockets with the dust and the memories That rises from the shoes on my feet I won't be back here Though we may meet again I know it's dark outside Don't be afraid Everytime I ever cried from fear Was just a mistake that I made Wash yourself in your tears And build your church On the strength of your faith Please Listen to me Don't let go Don't let this desperate moonlight leave me With your empty pillow Promise me the sun will rise again I too am tired now Embracing thoughts of tonight's dreamless sleep My head is empty My toes are warm I am safe from harm...

Friday, August 8, 2025

back to school

so whatever im a psychologist and im trying to study to become a teacher whatever im gonna buy a big house one day. its scary. i love children but could never have my own.

coming to terms and facing my hypersexual nature, one that roots from deep and forgotten tragic events i my childhood that i can feel but cant remember. i want to lure, consume and destroy. i do. i want to be a vampiric figure and drive men mad. i want to drive men to despair. thats what i want. i want to rip throats with my teeth. better yet make him rip out his own throat off with his hands and offer it up for a meal, and die. im a force of pure good and my inner goddess is a carnivorous animal

ive been thinking about this because im looking into getting into witchcraft and need to come back down to earth. but i cant explore myself with my partner who traumatized me. so what now. i still want to know how im wanted and by who, and i want them to writhe and twist.

the piercings are going. BAD! theyre super tender still. my bday soon and i might go to vegad (21 yrs, duhh) could be fun fun fun. my room is coming along super cute. new vanity, a canopy, etcetera. paint anytime soon.

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sylvia plath, the bell jar

I saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story. From the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked. One fig was a husband and a happy home and children, and another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor, and another fig was Ee Gee, the amazing editor, and another fig was Europe and Africa and South America, and another fig was Constantin and Socrates and Attila and a pack of other lovers with queer names and offbeat professions, and another fig was an Olympic lady crew champion, and beyond and above these figs were many more figs I couldn't quite make out. I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because I couldn't make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet.

Psalm 18: 6-11

In my distress I called upon the Lord, And cried out to my God; He heard my voice from His temple, And my cry came before Him, even to His ears. Then the earth shook and trembled; The foundations of the hills also quaked and were shaken, Because He was angry. Smoke went up from His nostrils, And devouring fire from His mouth; Coals were kindled by it. He bowed the heavens also, and came down With darkness under His feet. And He rode upon a cherub, and flew; He flew upon the wings of the wind. He made darkness His secret place; His canopy around Him was dark waters And thick clouds of the skies.